At every second that your words are left unsaid,
leaves me to break.
At every moment’s passing that you are still not by my side,
leaves me at a universe away from you.
Love thee with each breath taken,
yet I choke on the emptiness you left me.

Please my friend,
There’ll be more time for you,
or my heart will be cold as ice.
Don’t think of it trice.
Just open your eyes
Please my friend
Don’t let this be
Listen to me
Look at me
Don’t you dare leave me
Please my friend!
Open your eyes.

This poem is dedicated to my friend, Laura,
who was hit by drunk driver in February and went into a coma.
She is awake now and is working on a full recovery.
I prayed for her every night. Please get better soon, Laura.
Follow her recovery here:
Caringbridge-Laura

Is it possible to love when my heart won’t allow it?
Is it possible to get close when my walls won’t allow it?
Is it possible to care when my soul won’t allow it?
Is it possible to smile when my depression won’t allow it?

In the end I sit alone because of this,
At the end of the day, I put ink to paper
When its over, I drip tears down my cheek
All because I couldn’t save her.

Now I’m cursed to exile amongst a world so popular
The feeling of being alone in a crowded room
The screams I hear in silent times
The world of color, just seems so gloom.

The person I care about most has left,
And left me with a hole in my soul
A feeling that keeps me from getting close
I hurt with every thing that I can’t control

I love you more than I should,
I can’t tell you because I won’t allow it,
Everything I loved has been dispersed
Saying I love you and I care, I just have to omit.

David Landon

You think you know a person
They turn around and surprise you
With a knife in your back
Twist then enter knife number two.
You had a problem with me, kid
You should have spoken to me, kid
Instead you coward behind your second face
Man up, because what you’ve done, can’t be undid.
I’ve dealt with scumbag nation
But none of them talked behind backs,
More than you did to us
You disgust me, with your whispered verbal attacks.
Continue with your second face
As when the hourglass turned,
You will see, my former friend
Respect is not given, but earned.

As I lie here with no sound in the room,
I think of you, and how you are no longer here.
Your words still ring in my head,
I miss your caring love.

I worry, and you bring my mind to ease.
I become confused, and I think of your advice.
You woke me with words of positivity,
And put me to sleep with words of love.

I wonder if you are proud of me,
I read notes you wrote me before you left.
You said you were happy that I was your child,
You supported my dreams and goals.

As one more tear falls from my eye this day,
Four years after the first one fell,
The tears taste no less sorrowful,
And they feel like they never will.

I say a prayer to your grave,
I spend time talking to your urn,
I reminisce with the pictures of us,
I hold on to every last powerful memory.

I still imagine you there at each meal,
At each holiday, and at each moment of silence
You made each day, each minute, each moment great.
I miss you. I love you. I will be with you again one day.

R.I.P Mom
April 9, 1956 – February 12, 2007

I can never deny being in your presence
I see your smile and I am taken back
You bring light into the darkness of my day
I am strucken by your joy of life.

Flaws exist, but yours just compliment your ways
Goals for the future, accomplishments in the past
You let nothing stop you,
I am in awe of your will.

Your beauty, your smile
Your unfathomed love and care
Your joy of each day
All things that I love about you.

You make me love each day,
You make me want to do better with my life
You’re my hero, my inspiration
You’re the person I love.

This morning I didn’t want to lift my head,
I didn’t even want to get out of bed.

This morning I didn’t want to take a shower,
all I could do was listen to the clock tick another hour.

This morning I didn’t want to sing a song,
I just hoped the morning wouldn’t go on.

This morning I didn’t want to see the sun shine,
to see it meant I wasn’t fine.

This morning I didn’t want to eat,
I didn’t even want for my bed to look neat.

This morning I didn’t want to go to school,
this just wasn’t the day for me to act cool.

This morning I didn’t want to talk to anyone,
I just didn’t want to have any fun.

This morning I didn’t want to hear the truth,
I didn’t want to front or act couth.

This morning I hated what I saw.
This morning I just couldn’t go on.
This morning for me was just all wrong.

She goes out for the night,
Dancing with all of her friends.
In a crowd of people,
Where only she stands out.

She gives that smile, she tosses her hair.
She throws up her hands,
She moves her body.
She redefines beauty.

She talks to you with an angelic voice,
She smiles and laughs as you can’t find the words.
You can’t believe your heart could beat this fast
You melt when you look into her shinning eyes.

Her eyes put the stars to shame,
Her presence makes everything else fade away.
She say she’s insecure
Girlie, you’re amazing just the way you are.

Without your smile
That I see each day
I feel like I would
Just fade away.

Your eyes, your smile
Your laugh, your presence
Everything you do
Compliments your beautiful appearance.

My thoughts of you today;
You’re more alluring than words can say
I mean it from the bottom of my soul
You’re the only thing that can make me whole.

I just want to make you smile
I just want to make you laugh all awhile.
Just keep looking past me, Love
I will keep the sun shining on you from above.

Words destroy whatever they can.
Death destroys whatever it wants.
Without the memory of someone we loved,
Life destroys us.

Can there be one without the other,
Can we survive without each other.
Is this world all we got,
Or is there more that we forgot.

Single life that we own,
Fragile to finally over.
One mistake, one misfortune
Everyone suffers…